With my mighty fists of horror and unstopable cruelty-

"Son fear is the heart of love"

my pinky is strained. how does one strain a pinky you ask? by being too fancy or by restraining how fancy you are. i have either been keeping my pinky up too often while sipping tea or i have not been sipping enough tea.

it is amazingly painful and surprisingly difficult to not use your pinky on you dominate hand for things like shuffling, typing, carrying anything.

i blame ben for being so casual that either i have stopped sipping tea or he is so casual that i more forcefully raise my pinky to reclaim some of my former fancy life. any way you cut it, clearly it is ben's fault.

Solient green is people!

About 1.5 hours into the final episode you'll understand why I shout this- and shout this I do.

Also---

WATCH THE GOD DAMN SHOW AND TALK TO ME ABOUT IT!!!

I am screening comments so just in case you did watch the final BSG you can talk to me about it without upsetting those who haven't.

I wish I lived in Chicago.

Almost every Friday I wish that. I don't like my plans to be based on the whims of others.

I miss Maryam.

I created an event on Facebook. This is my second attempt at doing so. If this goes the same way the last one did I will give up on growing a social life here. I thought about doing it and quickly in the same day created it. I am now regretting it. Sitting here today thinking about my weekend plans I'm disheartened and worried about my ability to stay positive in the face of being disheartened.

Work is lame. I am unexcited about going to day. I hope next week pans out some interviews.

Obama orders the closure of Gitmo- "Signing the orders, Mr Obama said the US would continue to fight terror, but maintain "our values and our ideals". "

I think I know how y'all felt on inagueration day/election day. I was glad/releaved when Obama was elected. I am glad that Bush is finally out of office.

However today it is like a weight has been lifted off my chest. I am signifigantly less embarassed about our country. Wee!

So last night I put the cat in the bedroom. I went to brush my teeth. I come out of the bathroom and the door to the bedroom is open with the light on. I don't see Ben. I step in the room and take off my clothing and walk further into the room assuming Ben is in the other bathroom. He jumps from the closet- I don't even hear if he says anything- he grabs me and yelp/start to shake. I realise it's Ben and slowly my hearing returns and he is laughing. He leaves to go brush his teeth and I have a total panic attack on the bed.

Someone hiding somewhere to hurt me/kidnap me is my most reasonable fear. (My other big fears include but are not limited to being left by the person I love and falling downstairs-- these are the normal/reasonable ones and- biological attack/chemical attack and zombies)

Ben is totally lucky I had just peed cause I would have peed on the floor- and guess who isn't cleaning up anything that is scared out of her? That's right- me.

Last night we went to three parties. They were each a totally different sort of party. The first was lots of people talking civily and playing games/catching up on each others lives. The second party was a bunch of people I don't know but who all know each other being very happy to see each other and very loud/giggly. And the third party was very small and more low key but drunker :) Now this certainly was my own perceptions and we only spent a small bit of time at the first two parties. Each party had its own attractions and sort of summed up (at least to me) the people throwing the party. It was interesting and fun and a good way to start off the new year.

Ben is wonderful. Not much to say beyond that- he just is. :)

Ben is gone for a long long time. He was super sweet last night and tackled an evil amount of snow at the end of the driveway. I tried prevent some of that but there was just so much snow in the street my small amount of shoveling into the street didn't help.

I finally lvled my WoW chacater which is good times- I'm actually almost to 69- the sexiest lvl there is- cause for some reason 68 is going by very very quickly.


I miss Ben already. I guess I should have something for lunch.

It makes me sad that i cannot and will not share the most meaningful to me/songs that make me think of Ben with him cause they often have that twangy guitar/are slow.

I vividly recall listening to Iowa loud in my dorm room, crying, thinking of a lover I knew I could never have- how odd to hear it again for the first time in ages.

Lucille Cliffton is lovely sometimes- I'm don't actually feel this way but there are moments in my life when I certainly have

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I have an awful hacky cough, stuffed sinuses and an achey body of acheyness. Worst part is that I getting on a very long plan ride in just two days. Doom I say Dooooooooom!


Okay, I'm done complaining. Yay Phillies! Yay Eagles!


Going to go steam the crap out of my lungs. Oh yeah, and there was snow that wasn't sticking but was totally snow which means it is now offically winter.

If you are on my friends list, I want to know 36 things about you.
I don't care if we never talk, or if we already know everything about each other.
Short and sweet is fine... you're on my list, so I want to know you better!

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it's the little things... the things that make things good or make you miss the past. It's been nearly a year since I started dating Ben. That's totally wierd.

I am bad at actually asking for what I want. I also seem to be bad at getting what I want when I ask for it. I don't know what to do about any of the things that are going on right now. My life is basically falling apart in little ways at this point. I guess I just want to live in a way I can't.

Still looking for a new job. Have expanded that to far and away as a result of this past week. ::shrug::

I seriously hate my job. *so* much to do. totally not my fault. I am tired too. I just wish I could go home.

They haven't been in the play offs since Ben was 1. They are pretty much done. I mean I count nothing out with the Phillies. We can lose with a three game lead in a 7 game series. Now with a two game lead in a five game series... when we still have our pitching staff on good rotation... it isn't set in stone but I'm buying a little broom for Ben.

ralinad is just awesome for stealing stuff from. He has the video up but i'm just going to put the transcript under a cut here. This is Richard Trumka from the AFL-CIO.

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If you have Nathan_Lounge friended sorry for the repeat.

So I have very specfic and very simplistic tastes in most things dress/jewlery oriented. Haven't been a fan of most rings I've seen of late... the exception to this is what ralinad designed for his fiance. *so* pretty almost makes me think engagement rings are worth it :)